What Slowing Down Opens
I signed up for the Pajama Party for the Soul because I know what it feels like to slow down.
Not rest. Not relaxation. The kind of slowing down that opens something in you. The part that doesn't speak in words, that doesn't fit in a calendar, that refuses to be productive.
I wanted that. And I was afraid of it.
Because I know myself. When I go deep, I sometimes stay there. And coming back. To rhythm, to focus, to the world that asks things of me. That takes effort. So I arrived with desire and resistance in equal measure. Delicious. Disorienting. Both true.
My intention surfaced somewhere in the first hours. It named itself: legacy, the question underneath everything I do.
What I harvested surprised me, or maybe it didn't. What I'm here to do moves between two worlds. The masculine and the feminine. The structured and the wild. The knowing and the not-knowing. the black and the white. I’ve been working with this polarity for decades. This weekend I lived it. Not as theory. As practice.
And something in that landed differently.
I spoke my truth. Not because I prepared it. Not because the room was safe enough. Because it came from somewhere free. From love. That was moving. Genuinely moving.
It was easy because love was in everything surrounding us. In the food. In the guidance of Andrea, Franciska, Marjolein, and Petra. In the warmth of sleeping in someone's home, that particular intimacy of being a guest, of being held.
What I'm most grateful for: being seen. And seeing. The safety to look at myself without flinching. To witness others without managing them.
This weekend feeds my mission, fuels my curiosity, and deepens my exploration of how masculine and feminine can work together instead of against each other. When to lead with structure. When to surrender to the flow. How to move between them without losing myself.
I left with more curiosity and connection than I arrived with.
That's enough. That's everything.
About the Author
Marja Godvliet is a transformational coach and video documentarian based in the Netherlands. She works with conscious professionals who carry more wisdom than they dare to show. Her mission: to make their signal congruent and unmistakable. She is the founder of LiefdeVoorLeven, a movement for leaders in care and transformation who are ready to stop prescribing and start living their truth.